My Feeling

          In this class, at first, I do not like it.  Now, I still do not like it, but I love Mrs. May.  I have learned a lot from her.  Not only grammar or writing skill, but also the way to talk in front of others, the way of thinking, the way to work, the American acent, and above all of them, the way to be myself.  Frankly, I have never really studied in Vietnam until I came in ALP because the style is not match with me.  I love ALP!  I really do not want to leave.  I do not want to go to the mature life right after I find my peace and hapiness in ALP.  Anyway, I must!  I must go out there and find myself, stand up from my failures, reach my accomplishment, make good stories, and come back to tell my beloved teachers.
          I appreciate any moment I have been in ALP.  I have many good masters in here.  One becomes my friend, one supports my emotion, one teaches me the behavior, one sharpens my mind.  Moreover, all of you BELIEVE in me!  Next semester I will go to Indio to start my plan in there.  Because I have some certain disadvantages, my path will not as conspicuous as I wish, but I know that day will come eventually.  Maybe ten, fifteen, or even twenty more years,  it will!
          Classmates, thank you all because you smiled with me, you talked with me as a friend.  Just a smile or a "good morning", you made me feel like I was living in classes.  Thank you!  You listened to me carefully when I said some crazy things.  Thank you!  You debated with me lively to show respect even I could have said something inappropriate.  Thank you very much!
          I miss you all!

Topic #7: Happiness

Family

*beep*…

-       Mom, it’s been 3 years since that day.  Next week I will come home, and I really want to meet you.  I miss you so much mom!

              Son, I… I cannot hold my tear when I heard that.  I will tell everyone about this to welcome you.

-          *chuckle* - Thank you mom, you are the best!  Ah… I have something to ask you…  Can my friend come to our house?

-          That’s great!  Who is that?  We will welcome both of you, son.  Also, he can sleep in our house for 2 or 3 days.

-          No, mom.  I want him to live with us later on…  He doesn’t have place to go, and he also lost his arms and a leg.

-          What?  What are you thinking?  We cannot take care of him for his whole life.  He cannot work!  A handicapped person will be a trouble for us, so I don’t want him to mess up our life.  You have just come back from the battle field.  I don’t want that happen, son.

-          … I see, mom… Goodbye mom!

*beep*

Two week after the conversation, the soldier had not come back.  His mother was very worried about him.  She could not wait anymore, then, she hurriedly made a call with the unit which he was in to check his status… After that status report, the tears keep pouring down from the mother’s eyes.  The officer reported that her son had jumped from the top floor the previous week, and his body just had one arm and one leg.

What would you do if you were in his situation?  This is the story I read from my facebook.  What do you think about this story?  Is the handicapped son thoughtless?  Do you think he knew his mother would do anything to take care of him for his whole life?  I am sure that he did.  In my opinion, he was not a thoughtless guy, on the contrary, he thought a lot.  He not only knew his mother would take care of him but also knew everybody in his family would do it.  Consequently, he decided to end his life rather than “be a trouble for his family”.  Moreover, I think his friend was just his make-up person to know his family’s thought.

With me, that is family.  We are unfair, we do crazy things as if we are thoughtless just because we love each other so much!  We are unfair because we put our family above our lives, we do crazy things to sacrifice for our beloveds, we seem to be thoughtless because we know our family will encourage and agree with every single of our decision even it is definitely weird in other people’s angles.  If I can smile whenever I meet my family and make them smile, it is my happiness.  

Topic #6: Pet Peeves

Schedule

It’s really hard to distinguish between being annoyed and being angry, many things make me annoy would make me angry.  I had to find something annoy me in a certain level that cannot make me angry.  Then, I felt that this topic was “so annoy” to me because I do not feel comfortable and angry at that time.  In contrast, I feel excited with new challenges, but it also makes me uncomfortable.  Right now, consequently, my answer is things that appear in my schedule. 

Every time I make a schedule, things usually do not go in the right ways they should be.  Therefore, I usually sigh whenever I check my schedule, then I look at myself as a loser.  However, I do not angry myself to be such a flawed person like that; instead, I think I have a new challenge that week.  As a result, I become more and more energetic to solve my problems.  I think this is not good because I cannot solve the root of my problems, so the annoyance will reoccur.  Anyway, that is my biggest annoyance now.  I am trying my best to eliminate it.

Topic #5: Why Does This Exist?

At the very first time, I was looking in plants for the non-benefit living creatures, and I was very proud of my case which is weed.  However, when I was surfing on the internet to learn about this bad plant, I found that they are not bad at all.  Every plant has their own role in food chains or is source for medicine.  Weeds only have a bad effect for human’s agriculture, but they have many good effects for environment and other herbivores. As a result, my plan was ruined.  I should have not search information about this plant, so I had to find another case. 

This time, I explore a snow forest, and I find two interesting animals which are owl and wildcat. Owls have big eyes, wildcats have big eyes.  Owls are small, wildcats are small.  Owls eat mice, wildcats eat mice.  Owls are hunted by bigger animals, wildcats are hunted by the same bigger animals.  Why do we have owl as we already had wildcat?  It must be excess when there are two animals with the same function in the same place at the same time?  Moreover, wildcats are very cute, but owls are very ugly as if they are all old.  I feel unsafe when I look at their eyes especially in this Halloween month.  What does it exist for?

Topic #4: Senses

LOOK AT MY EYES

     Everybody is always looking for something, which makes their life complete.  Some find it in their adventure life, but some find it in the cup of coffee every morning.  Have you ever thought it would be complete if you lost something?  Maybe it makes sense.  With that possibility, I will give up on my eyes.

     We are usually fooled by our own eyes because we use it more than other senses.  When we use something too much, we are easy to lose aware of it.  Someone left their wives because they had found a more beautiful girl.  Media uses our eyes to make profits.  Moreover, if we use many senses at the same time, our brain will be overworked.  With me, I do not need my eyes to feel the love from my lover, to hear her voice, to taste her foods, to smell her hairs in every morning and to hug her when she is sad.  Without it, I still can guess her emotions through her voice, can see her try on the foods through the taste.  By the way, I think when we lack a sense, we will easily satisfied with our present and gain the positive thought to promote ourselves.  I just need my heart to love everyone, and if someone loves me I still can not "see" their love with my eyes.  Come on, who does not love me.  Just kidding!

     I would like to lose two things from two senses like one eye and one hand with this topic, but it is not right.  Some people wear a black cloth to hide their one eye like a pirate, and it is so cool!  OK everyone, let's think which sense will leave us joyfulness when it is gone.  Don't feel so negative or be aggressive with our lovable teacher guys.

Topic #3: Popularity, Accomplishment, or Organization?

     In my opinion, popularity is a state of being accepted by people around me. The reason why I choose this because I want to socialize with others, I can help and be helped by others.

     Being popular would give me a lot of chances to be myself which means, in this case, being able to build a network. Why do I want to socialize with others? Because I have found out that I could not do anything unless I have interaction with people. I want to help people, I can’t stand seeing people suffered from their sadness, failure, disappointment, etc.; also, I can’t bear suffering from being in a bad mood. I am afraid of being lonely. Therefore, I need to socialize myself. Another reason is because I want to meet and work with various individuals; enriching my experience in group-working. I will feel familiar with greeting new persons. I think it will help me a lot in my future.

     One scientist said that people seemed to be more productive when they got along with others. It’s right, at least in my case. That’s why popularity is the most important to me. 

Topic #2: Time Travel

Time Travel

     Waiting for bus and looking at the traffic, talking people, ringing cellphone, several palm trees, not a bird,... what an uncomfortable desert atmosphere in this city. I really wanted to escape from this reality. While I was sitting under the intensive sunlight in the afternoon, thought about my homework if I had a time machine, what would I do... Kept thinking thinking... thi..nk...
     Vroommmm, the loudly voice of the engine, opened my eyes with the ice surrounding and freezing air, people were dancing in the loincloths around the fire. Luckily, the machine changed my clothes into loincloths like them, I wanted to join them. After the dance, they gave me a big crunchy aromatic meat with a cup of pure and hot water. I instantly gulped my meal without paying attention to anything. Just one last bite then my meal would be done, but it was so noisy outside, I came out and my mouth was frozen because of the stunning sight - A trained mammoth, it seemed angry with the ropes surround its body. Someone asked me to join the trip, my legs were immobolized because I was so scared; however, I overcame it within thirty seconds. After taking a deep breath, I was finally on the back of the mammoth. Up here, everything was clear as if I was on top of the world. Suddently, with a few steps, the ice cracked below us, the mammoth was running in the panic and slided into the dark hole with the extremspeed, we all screamed out loud...Screech... the bus tires are screeching, I woke up in panic, my body was all sweaty and hold the bottle of water really tight. Fortunately it was just a dream... but an interesting dream.
     Now, I think I have the answers for my favorite teacher, If I could go back in time I would go to the Pliocene era to see and ride on a mammoth "one more time". And when I read the question if I want to alter anything about our history - mother of present and future. There's not a thing that I would change, because nature is amazing just the way it is.